A thief called grief
Grief always find its way
like the water under the door
an anxious child lost in the maze
seeping quietly to places unknown
it will sink and seep in your soul
evade you at times.
You cannot force tears of joy
like a thief
a house abandoned,
sand slipping through the fingers
my eyes have run dry
every loss leaves an impression
sometimes the grief is dichotomous
like the balloons slipped through
those tiny fingers
a loss intermixed with wonder.
You have left long before the last spring
a dying songbird in my hand
reminds me of the broken prayer
once we were.
I still find pieces of your
broken memories, shards
lodged in me
pulling out your claws from my supple body
pieces and sieved with pain,
my pain impaled on the stars in the nightly sky.
Pain shines brightly in the darkness
this pulverized pain
reminds me broken pieces I foraged together
to make a whole of me.
the painstaking process of keeping this soul together
when like a hungry vulture
you are shredding and scraping bits of me
sometimes I think you scooped
and carved out the light out of me
this ache in my bones
stripped of light
the pain feels different in darkness than in light
like a million feathers burning
still not leaving soot
Your existence in me in invisible
this pain is invisible.
Megha Sood lives in Jersey City, New Jersey. She is a contributing author at GoDogGO Cafe, Candles Online, Free Verse Revolution, Whisper and the Roar, Poets Corner and contributing editor at Ariel Chart.
Her 290+ works have been featured in 521 Magazine #Sideshow, Oddball, Pangolin review, Fourth and Sycamore, Paragon Press, Royal Rose, Visitant Lit, Quail Bell, Modern Literature, Visual Verse, Dime show review, Nightingale and Sparrow, Piker Press and many more. Her works have been anthologized in “We will not be silenced” by Indie Blu(e) Publishing, (“All the Lonely people”, Blank Paper Press) and upcoming in 12 other anthologies by US, Australian and Canadian Press. Her poem “Survivor” was selected for the “Survival is Insufficient” series by the Jersey City Writers as part of the event sponsored by the National Endowment of Arts.
She recently won the 1st prize in NAMI NJ Dara Axelrod Mental Health Poetry contest. She blogs at https://meghasworldsite.